Choose Your Suffering
The past months have not been easy ones, digging deep into moral injuries and sanctuary traumas that have been underlying so many of the issues that developed over the years of my policing career. I never really knew how those events that seemed so minor would have such lasting impacts because truth be told, up until my time in Kelowna I didn't even know what a moral injury was. Sanctuary trauma didn't make sense because I had no idea of what the concept was or how it would come to develop. Working on these events has been worse than the visceral trauma work because those major events have an easily identified beginning, middle, and end. Twelve plus years of traumas were not by any means easy to work through, but with each one that I worked through the impact of the session seemed to lessen. Sure, it would knock me on my ass for a day or two, kick up some shitty nightmares but then I could work my way back into the routine of life. I would trade one or two days of pain for week...